I’m sitting at the airport people watching and feeling the same discomfort with my body and appearance that I’ve always felt, and I wonder how many women don’t feel like that and what it’s like.
Its exhausting and honestly makes me want to not be alive a lot of the time.
Edit: All my t-girl homies spotting the dysphoria right away 😅, I didn’t really want this to be about my dysphoria I guess, but well spotted.
Life’s too short to give a fuck. If the people close to you overtly judge you because you’re not culturally acceptable then its better to be alone. Find the people who love you for you not for what you can do for them.
The people I surround myself with don’t care, but trying to date, living in a very vain society, it’s hard.
It takes a certain amount of courage to drop everything and follow your dreams. You know whats right. Make it happen. A la American punk ethos. I once did this, in my 20s I got strung out and had no choice but to hitchhike to socal. Never a freer time In my life. But that’s where it happens, on the edge of existence. I often dream of the potential I’ll never see.