I’m sitting at the airport people watching and feeling the same discomfort with my body and appearance that I’ve always felt, and I wonder how many women don’t feel like that and what it’s like.
Its exhausting and honestly makes me want to not be alive a lot of the time.
Edit: All my t-girl homies spotting the dysphoria right away 😅, I didn’t really want this to be about my dysphoria I guess, but well spotted.
As someone still dealing with the tail-end of an eating disorder, no. And it doesn’t matter what people tell me, compliments just fall flat. I haven’t felt good enough since I was in my teens.
It’s not even because other people judge me. At least, I don’t think they do. They actually were mostly worried about me when I was underweight. But I still judge me, and it will never be enough is how I feel. I suppose somehow I built up too high expectations for myself.
I get you. I don’t know how to get it myself, but I hope that you at least find some peace with yourself.