This isn’t a sangha, as anonymity is antithetical to one, no way to hold one accountable for right conduct. Actually you would do well to go join an actual sangha. In fact if all your posts are truthful, that would probably be a very good idea. You get away from your supposed abusers and you get to actually practice Buddhism.

https://www.azbuddhisttemple.org/ <- go there. Get help there.

Why post here about it? Go to [email protected] or something.

On an anonymous forum someone spamming weird pleas, pity-farming and constant trauma-dumping just reads as trolling. Nobody has 0 reason to believe anything you write. If you’re in distress, call a help line. If you’re assaulted, call the police. You’ve probably been blocked by half of Lemmy already because even if you’re being sincere, there’s literally nothing anyone can do to help you. Because again, anonymous forum. The fact that you seem to lack the common sense to understand this is exactly why you get blocked, banned or just ignored.

Lemmy can’t help you. Get actual help.