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  • I once had an English teacher who was Indian (on a high school in The Netherlands). He used to work for the embassy but stayed here until his kids finished school. He did multiple university studies in his life, like 6 or 7. He didn’t speak Dutch. But he wanted to do something he loved until his kids were old enough to live on their own.

    Often we had English right after gym class. He thought we were way too restless, so he ordered us to sit on our desk, folded legs, eyes closed while he put on meditation music from India and told us the most amazing stories from when he was young. About his first girlfriend, seeing the first steam train with her after waiting a whole day, and much more beautiful stories. End of the class: “oh by the way, this is your homework”.

    If you didn’t make your homework or failed a test, he would never get angry or anything. But you could see on his face he was disappointed, while he said he knew in his heart we could do so much better, and that he believed in us.

    Best teacher I’ve ever had. Such a kind and warm hearted man.

    No one ever skipped his class. Everyone did their best to study, as we all felt he deserved our effort. He wasn’t shy to tell us we made him proud, something my parents never said.











  • Ok sure, but it doesn’t change my point. I can also understand that in certain cultures and in history your family is all you have. But in these days they are just people you cannot chose, just like colleagues. Friends however, are people you meet and connect with because you are similar. These bonds are much stronger than someone that shares some DNA with you. Doesn’t mean you can’t have strong bonds with family too, but it’s not a given they are always the strongest connections you have. In my case, and in the case of some of my friends, family members are just a disappointment while my friends and I have unconditional love for eachother and are even there through the hardest times. While my parents just concern themselves for me just not dressing the way they like and not having the career and education they wanted me to have, therefore judging me and pushing me away. Especially in times I need support instead of judgement and resentment.


  • There is this saying that is misinterpreted.

    blood runs thicker than water

    People saying this mean to say that family bonds are more important than friendships.

    But it’s incomplete. The full expression:

    blood runs thicker than water from the womb

    Meaning blood bonds, friendships, are stronger than family connections, the water from the womb.

    I have a brother who votes for a conspiracy right wing party. My mother keeps spreading racist slurs and follows right wing populists and media. My father is more like me, but is afraid to get into conflict so he always takes my mother’s side.

    I told them, after countless chances, I’m done with them. I broke off all contact, with a long explanation without convictions, attacks, blaming or what so ever. Just explaining I feel hurt by how I feel treated and I feel helpless as any form of conversation ends in full scale attacks onto me, blaming me for everything, calling me a child in its puberty (I’m 39) who never takes responsibility (while I always take full responsibility for my actions, while they have never done so).

    I’m happy with my group of honest and deep friendships. I don’t need my family. They wrote me out of their will. I don’t care. I don’t need anything from them anymore. I’m surrounded by amazing and loving people, while they are going to die sad and alone.







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