I’m having one of my “can’t get out of bed” days where nothing seems fun, but it’s kinda funny, I am getting a constant “yeah, but strangers on the internet thought you looked cute” so that’s nice at least!
it feels like Iike depression is a bit less bad… does anyone else deal with depression by dressing up?
brain is telling me being depressed but pretty is dumb, but i swear i feel a glimmer of something when people around me agree that i’m pretty or cute.
It is honestly fucked up how much of a difference it makes to perform femininity even if just at home. I don’t know if I’ve experienced exactly what you have, but it does seem like something I can empathize with. For a long time, I didn’t accept I was trans because I didn’t think I “really needed,” it, or that I had bigger issues to manage from anxiety, depression, and PTSD.
Couple weeks on HRT made dealing with the bigger issues infinitely more tolerable, nearly trivial on some days. It makes a world of difference.
honestly even if it causes physical/sex problems, i’m really hoping E has that effect on me. I don’t want to say i hate my mind, but I wish i were… different.
in the interim, I can channel that aggression towards myself to break my depression cycles since taking care of myself seems to help
I don’t know about sex problems honestly besides fertility, but it has been my experience that the benefits were not only substantial, but also unpredictable. I had that similar feeling about just not feeling right unless I changed in some way I could never identify, and yeah, this did most of that very quickly.
I can’t say that translates to everyone’s or your experience, but I do think that is more common than not.