I still have my penis and intend to keep it. I enjoy the lead up and topping, but I find that I still get a lot of dysphoria as I get closer to climaxing. It makes it essentially impossible for me to orgasm while topping, to say nothing of how uncomfortable the dysphoria is.
Does anyone have any advice on how I could make myself feel more feminine in those moments? I haven’t really tried wearing anything since I prefer to just be naked, but I guess I could try that. I guess I’m more looking for advice on how to feel like a woman topping instead of feeling like a man topping.
Try different positions until something clicks. Positions like her sitting in your lap facing you, or ones that are scissoring adjacent are more equal (doing things with each other) whereas things like doggy style or missionary are more inherently transitive (you doing something to her).
A position I find works well for me is her on her side, with me kneeling either side of her lower leg and her upper leg over my thigh. I recommend it