I still have my penis and intend to keep it. I enjoy the lead up and topping, but I find that I still get a lot of dysphoria as I get closer to climaxing. It makes it essentially impossible for me to orgasm while topping, to say nothing of how uncomfortable the dysphoria is.
Does anyone have any advice on how I could make myself feel more feminine in those moments? I haven’t really tried wearing anything since I prefer to just be naked, but I guess I could try that. I guess I’m more looking for advice on how to feel like a woman topping instead of feeling like a man topping.
its not that i dont want to get bottom surgery. i really do, but i want to keep my penis too. id like to get a phallus preserving vaginoplasty eventually, though thats still several years away.
as far as why i want to keep it… i guess mostly i like having it and i would miss it if it was gone. its complicated and i have a lot of messy feelings around it. idk if ill even be able to get past my fear of getting surgery. ugh theres too much to say and i dont really want to share such deep feelings here, at least not right now.