Gaslighting you into making you feel guilty and then using it against you to control you. Using your natural tendency to try to be agreeable and second guess yourself against you. Belittling you at every occasion. Silent treatments. Criticizing everything you do. Openly sexist remarks. Accusing you of ruining everything you touch. Angrily ranting against you to themselves when you’re in a different room but loud enough that your can still hear. Scoffing at you randomly. Argue against everything you say, often with blatant bad faith arguments to a point where you don’t even dare to speak. Controlling everything you do. Belittling you in front of other people. Making embarrassing scenes in public. Ordering you around like you’re a dog. Dehumanizing you. Trying to guilt you into giving them money.

That lasted only a week. I fortunately had enough life experience to tell that what was going on was not normal and walked away. She had tried to break me as a person and turn me into a thing she could just order around and abuse at will. It still took me the better part of a year and several consultations to finally get most of the effects of her gaslighting out of my head because I still had the “what if I’m the problem?” thought constantly coming back and keeping me awake at night. I’ve stopped thinking about it every day now but I’m still not fully recovered. It is true that you can severely mess up a person without ever laying a hand on them.

You know the stereotype of the unhappy marriage where one side always criticizes and down talks the other and all the other side responds is a meek and dissociated “yes dear”? It is often used for comedic effect in movies or shows. But now I know this can be real and it is anything but comedic. This person’s life is a daily torture and they should be rescued from it.