Just need to vent. I realized I was trans and I have been repressing it for awhile. I told myself I wanted to start hrt by the end of the year. But I have been struggling with health issues too. To the point that I may have to go on disability and everything feels hopeless. My living situation puts me into a position where I cannot be open about who I am. Plus I met someone who I thought was a really nice person. I just wanted to be friends but they love bombed me until I gave in. Which broke my self esteem all over again. Everything just feels like too much right now and I have spent the last two days in bed in the fetal position not moving at all.
That’s really hard. I’m sorry you’re going through that. You’re not alone though, I promise. Even if you’re made to feel that way in a society/family/living situation that tells you to stay small and never change to make others comfortable, you’ve got a whole bunch of folks out here who are here for you, even if we haven’t met and maybe never will. ❤️
I appreciate it. 💜 It would definitely be helpful if my living situation wasn’t tied to my job and my homophobic/transphobic boss. Been trying for months to find another job that I can even do with all my health problems.