Well, it finally happened to me. Somehow I now feel like crap for having a dick. I knew that at some point I wanted to get bottom surgery, but it hasn’t been because I desperately wanted to cut of my dick and felt shit because I still have one, but because I knew I wanted a vagina. Yesterday evening it turned around and now I feel absolutely miserable for still having one. Why does my brain has to make my life even harder than it already is? This type of Dysphoria is kind of a next level. It (at least currently) doesn’t really go away and noticing The source of my Dysphoria every time I move is next level crap.
Yeah, happened to me too. Came creeping up, but it still sucks. For me it accelerated when I got on progesterone, but that might be a coincidence.
As you said, not so much hating my dick but desperately wanting a vagina. I can feel exactly where it should be and where the parts should be, but…
It accelerated for me when I started estrogen, but E improved my life so significantly I obviously would choose that every time.
For me it was more about feeling my penis was out of place, but having a vagina felt too theoretical and I didn’t allow myself a direct desire (maybe that was repression).