A short time later, the women were attacked again by two people who got out of a vehicle. They were punched several times but managed to escape and alert the police.
For all the dipshits who say we shouldn’t arm ourselves, this is why we need to arm ourselves. People are willing to attack us violently for being who we are.
You’re not wrong. Hell, a few weeks ago I was banned 500 times by some weirdo, I now suspect because I interacted with you or maybe upvoted one of your comments.
But I hope you’re aware that you may be suffering from CPTSD related hyper vigilance. CPTSD because of all the (ongoing) trauma you face because you’re enby, hyper vigilance because you are now constantly aware of threats.
It’s a perfectly understandable reaction, but it can be very exhausting. Having to carry a knife to a supermarket or be prepared for an attacker while taking a shit, isn’t a fun way to live.
I hope you have been able to create a sanctuary where you can feel safe. I hope you’re also able to get the help you need coping with it. My CPTSD is caused by other things, but for example I find grounding exercises and keeping a gratitude journal useful. Doesn’t change the cause of my CPTSD, but has helped me cope.
So to be clear, I am absolutely not saying that the threats you face aren’t real, but suggesting you take care of yourself because you can’t be hyper vigilant all the time without it negatively impacting you.
TLDR: take care of yourself and an internet hug.
Thank you, it means a lot. I do go to therapy currently and have talked about some of the issues I’ve faced. I don’t like having to feel like I need to be ready to defend myself all the time. It’s hard though because on top of all the shit I get for being enby I also have an IRL stalker who threatens me online which is utterly terrifying. So it’s really hard for me to feel like I’m not in danger.
I usually take a few hours after work to unwind, work in the garden, read. Stuff that makes me feel happy before coming online at all.
