I’m really sorry everyone…this is all my own damn fault, I’m not denying that in the slightest.
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I was planning to die today. But I guess I’m not even capable of doing that.
This is all because I’m such an overdramatic, pathetic loser, an excuse for a human being. After an appointment with a new psychiatrist where her first question was “What is your deadname?” and after she told me I “started HRT late”, I just fell into a deeper spiral. Now there’s uncertainty if I’ll even be able to go to Thailand for SRS, which made me full on suicidal upon finding out, so I just kinda…broke.
And there’s the constant regret of not starting sooner, constant self-deprecating and loathing from feeling like I’ll never be a woman. Hating my face and body every single waking second.
I’m just…depressed and not doing well right now. And I’m making it everybody’s problem.
I’m sorry, but I guess I’m sticking around. I’m not dead just yet. I’m making a new account and starting over. But…at least, maybe you’ll believe me now that I’m not actually a good person?
I’m really sorry. I’m actually the worst. I know that.
Maybe I should have died. Maybe. But…instead I guess I’ll bother you all some more, again, from zero.
I’m sorry for being such an unimaginable fuckup…
Sincerely,
a very depressed trans girl,
Miisha
Y’all should be angry at me. You should hate me, at least as much as I hate myself. I’m taking up space in this community that other people need and deserve…god I’m pathetic
There’s unlimited space for you.
Thanks. I feel like an intruder, but I guess I’m still here, so…
no.effin’.way i ever get angry at you. told you many others here and i, all of us really, love you.
🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂 take some hugs, got an infinite amount for you.
you are a vulnerable sister who’s been told horrendous things by someone who should know better and should not see any trans people ever again. heck ! she should be banned from being a psychatrist
Hi from new account!
You are officially French sweetheart now 🩷
Hope you’re alright with that tag/title…
how lovely of you 😊 I am totally fine with it
there we go 😘
Loutreee <3
Thank you dear 💜
😘
new account? we doing tags now? you, my dear, cannot escape from the tag i gave you last month!
Ngl, I was looking forward to getting back my tag 😂. “Housegirlfriend” is just such a cute, wholesome term.
Thank you so much 💜
You are officially Mistress of eyeliner now! Hope that’s okay…
You did an amazing job with that eyeliner post tho. And your face is super pretty! ❤️
aww, thanks :3
(both the tag and the compliment!)
No problem dear 💜
Loutre, tysm 😭
Yeah she was pretty bad. Still gives me trazodone and escitalopram tho and I wanna try those to see if they help. She’s my med supply for now…
Thank you so much ♥️
I’m there and I ain’t going anywhere so … feel free to message whenever you need to
Tysm 😭
About the user tag…I see you have someone (someone very nice), so if it’s too much, just let me know and I’ll get rid of it ❤️. It’s just a silly little thing
don’t worry about the tag, it feels perfect as is :3
yup she’s my special someone ^^ I love her so much for being there for me and I do my best being there for her 🩷
That’s really wholesome! Super happy for you two. Best of luck and much happiness, lovelies ❤️
thank youuu 🩷
(btw i see she called you sis, so your are our sister :3)
Omggg, tysm! 😭
I feel blessed. Thank you so much, you two! 💜