Just need to vent. I realized I was trans and I have been repressing it for awhile. I told myself I wanted to start hrt by the end of the year. But I have been struggling with health issues too. To the point that I may have to go on disability and everything feels hopeless. My living situation puts me into a position where I cannot be open about who I am. Plus I met someone who I thought was a really nice person. I just wanted to be friends but they love bombed me until I gave in. Which broke my self esteem all over again. Everything just feels like too much right now and I have spent the last two days in bed in the fetal position not moving at all.

  • MrJ199414@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
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    4 days ago

    It has been hard. I have been trying to reach out to the few friends that I have but it is difficult to talk to some of them and the ones I do feel comfortable with are currently going through loss and trying to find a job. I don’t like putting my problems on others. I wish I could afford to go back to weekly therapy sessions but between my meds, appointments, and a surgery next week… I’m just so overwhelmed. Been trying to get another job but I’ve been turned down hundreds of times at this point. I have severe Rheumatoid Arthritis, like to the point I couldn’t walk, I’ve gained a bunch of weight. Plus the clinic I go to won’t do gender affirming care.

    • Domi@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
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      4 days ago

      Thanks for responding. It’s good that you’re here talking. I know there’s very little we can do to help you materially but we’ll always be here to listen.

      There are resources available for getting hormones the unofficial way too if you can’t get a doctor to provide them for you.