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I’m trying to let myself actually leave comments, to write things, to make art, etc. I usually clamp down on this as hard as I can, because the idea of anyone reading genuine thoughts or interacting with any actual piece of me is both terrifying and exposing.

But I am in my mid 30s now. I think I understand enough now to know that no one is ever going to be universally liked and supported, no one is ever going to exist without a little bit of interpersonal friction.

Do I still want to run from it every time? …Did I reconsider writing this comment about a dozen times while writing it? …yeah. But I am still trying. For this moment, I have the audacity.

that’s interesting. i don’t think i ever noticed this before, but yes. my eyes unfocus and i don’t see externally, when i am forcing an internal thought process to be ‘visible’. huh.

same. my thoughts, when they have any form, are more tactile than anything else. i can’t visualize (have aphantasia), but still can move things around to ‘feel’ the shape of things internally, especially when trying to figure something out. it’s like doing a 3d puzzle but in the dark.

most of the time it is silent in here and the tactile stuff doesn’t happen, though.

boot camps that cost thousands of dollars x.x

what qr code are people talking about? i must be out of the loop.

step 1, acquire tomato

please remember to take space for yourself too. you are a caring and kind person (i am judging off of this single post alone, admittedly, but let’s pretend you are being sincere) and in order to care for others you have to make sure you can care for them. i hope you get to have a soft blanket post shower with hot beverage evening too. all the best. :)

Jobless claims. Not jobs, jobless claims. Shitty title designed to get people to click and generate ad revenue. 🙄